Low Power Mode
I have reached a pivotal point in my personal growth and spiritual development where I am no longer questioning my guidance system. I am no longer requiring a full understanding before I can not only move forward, but be still in peace (none of which is easy, by the way). I have come to accept that being guided is not a race of moment to moment understanding…it’s a race of TRUST.
When I find myself met with revelation and guidance on how to move forward, and somehow I am anxious about it…I ask myself these questions: what are you aware of? Do you truly trust that you are connected with a force much larger than yourself? Do you believe the Universe supports you?
Low Power Mode.
As winter began to settle in, I heard God say so clearly: slow down, less is now more! Not knowing the full extent of this objective, I made it an intention to do just that.
Slowing down is not and was not easy. I felt a constant craving to do more, especially for my business. Eventually, I settled into the rhythm of creating more space to ground myself before starting my work day (waking up 15 mins earlier). I began to take more breaks during the day, ending my day around 5PM when I could. I continued my walking routine, bundling up for the brisk weather. As I subtly surrendered to a slower pace, I began to see clearly why I needed to conserve my energy.
(There will always be a payoff when you respect your internal guidance system, if not now, then later.)
I Am Aware of…
Death. I am aware that certain parts of me that were alive at the beginning of winter are no longer with me today. Although it was a battle removing the life from these no longer needed mental, emotional, and spiritual states, I can tell you that I am lighter and freer than ever.
Maybe you feel this way as well. You may have noticed that the winter was particularly challenging for you. And now, for whatever reason, you seem more clear and at peace…
Enough is Enough. I’ve always enjoyed the transcending nature of Jennifer Lopez in the movie Enough. In this movie, Jennifer is portrayed as this woman who is wrongfully treated by her husband (and his “associates”) and, for a while, she lacks the courage to remove herself from the situation. Once she finally does, however, her past hunts her down again.
I know that’s been true for me: when I thought I had left behind a toxic behavior or way of thinking, damn it, it shows up in another area of my life. It used to be discouraging, until recently. I realize that I have to FIGHT back like Jennifer Lopez eventually found the courage to do. I’ve had to combine the pain and abuse from my past as motivation to access the skills and techniques to finally stop running. I’ve decided that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I am here to stand my ground…and trust me, when you set your mind and perspective firmly, in that way, the Universe will respond. Are you at a place of enough is enough? As you settle into staying and not running, you will notice that your new stance elicits a different response from those around you. Don’t allow THEIR response to disrespect or disregard the growth that has brought you to this pivotal point 🙏🏽.
Do you want Justice?
Yes, I want justice. I want justice for all of the years that I felt wrong, less than, and misplaced. I want justice for all the years that I’ve spent living in “socio-culture induced anxiety.” I want justice for all of the moments I’ve missed to love myself completely. I want justice for all the ways I’ve given away my power.
I want justice. I want justice and I know the only way I will truly get it is by continuing my work…this internal work. The only way forward is by allowing what’s been done inwardly to unfold and manifest outwardly. Justice isn’t about revenge, it’s about proving that you are stronger, wiser, and more purposeful than that which has been wronged against you. Justice is about realizing you are not the mess of your past, but the redemptive power of your past.